So last Saturday, I ran my first 5k race. I didn’t do so well with time (45:31) but I am so proud with how far I came in a short time. In July, I tried to start running but I ended up getting shin splits. I also couldn’t run 1/4 of a mile nonstop. But regardless of how much pain I was in or what I couldn’t do, I never gave up. I kept running, with injuries and all. On August 1st, I ran my first mile non stop. I almost wanted to cry tears of joy because I didn’t think me of all people would be able to do it. I’ve always wanted to do a 5k so I signed up for the one on August 14th. Even though I couldn’t run all 3.1 miles nonstop, I still wanted to do it. So I did it all by myself. I ran the first mile nonstop, walked most of the 2nd mile, and ran the last 1.1 mile nonstop. With all the support I received from family and friends that day – I now know anything is possible. I’m running my 2nd 5k on Labor Day. My goal for this one is to finish under 40 minutes. If I am not able to do it this time around, I’m not going to give up. So just know, if you set your mind to it, anything is possible.
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Saturday, August 21st, 2010dear dreams.
Tuesday, July 6th, 2010Day 5 – written July 2, 2010
Dear Dreams,
To my dreams, my aspirations, I feel like you are always so close but yet far away. Sometimes I feel like giving up on you, but I have to tell myself that failure is never an option. To fulfill my lifelong dreams, I am taking the baby steps to get there. There are times where I feel like that is not good enough but I do remind myself that taking baby steps are better than taking no steps. I also had to step away from some negativity in the form of “friends” so I can continue to stay positive and be able to reach you when the time is right.
I will admit there are some dreams that I had dreamed about when I was younger but there were situations that happened in my life to where I don’t want to follow those dreams. People tell me that I don’t want to go through life without those dreams in hand and deep down, I really don’t.
Hopefully one day, I will fulfill my dreams that I really want to achieve at this very moment and once those dreams are achieved, I will go about fulfilling the other dreams I have suppressed, deep down inside.
I will see you soon.
Tiana
travie baby.
Tuesday, June 8th, 2010So I got really lucky and met Travie McCoy, the lead singer of Gym Class Heroes, last night before his concert with I Fight Dragons, 3OH!3, and Cobra Starship. I haven’t even listened to the other groups music before but they were pretty good when they performed. However, Travie rocked. I happened to preorder his CD that came with a T-Shirt and I got it an hour before we left in the mail so I wore the shirt. That shirt was what helped. When we got to the concert, my friend spotted a tall skinny guy all in white by the tour buses talking to this family and when we realized it was Travie, we headed over there. The guard stopped us and I told him I just wanted to show him my shirt. The guard said Travie was talking to the family because they were part of his fan club but right after he finished talking to them, he will give my shirt a quick look and a wave and will have to go because he had some type of press to do. So as we waited, I guess people started realizing that Travie was outside and saw us waiting, but the guard told them they needed to get away. Well he came over, started smiling at my shirt, gave me a hug, introduced himself in his New York accent like I didn’t know who the hell he was lol, and we started talking about his album since I listened to it on the way up there. I thought that was it and he goes “Do you want to take a picture?” So here is the picture! I didn’t get his autograph because I already had it from when I saw Gym Class Heroes in concert last year. We knew someone who was working the gates so she got him to sign something for us. I will add more pictures later. I met the members of Cobra Starship and got their autographs too. I’m sleepy…didn’t get home till 4 am and was up at 8 running errands.
update on the 40 before 40 list.
Thursday, June 3rd, 2010Here is an update on my 40 things I want to do before I turn 40. I may add a few things and delete some things from the list but I am just getting started on accomplishing this list. The ones with the line through it means I accomplished it. If it is italicized with a line through it, I’m thinking about deleting it from my list.
1 – Own a house.
2 – Run a 5k
3 – Learn another language: Become more fluent in Spanish and learn Arabic
4 – Attend a Broadway show in New York
5 – Be a member of the audience in a TV show.
6 – Travel Europe
7 – Get a doctorate degree
8 – Experience getting pregnant and giving birth
9 – Tell someone off and that they can kiss my black ass lol. I have a tendency of holding back how I really feel lol.
10 – Go on a cruise. May 28, 2010
11 – Take a pole dancing class lol.
12 – Master all positions in that one book lol.
13 – Have a night out where I drink only beer (I do not drink beer at all – just liquor)
14 – Sailor (don’t ask lol)
15 – Embark on an impromptu road trip.
16 – Join the mile high club (maybe 12, 14 and 16 can go together lol)
17 – Take a trip to Vegas with my crazy white friend, Jessica, (she told me to put that lol) and have one of those moments that will only stay in Vegas lol (seen The Hangover?!?…)
18 – Go skydiving ONLY if I’m in Vegas and maybe had a little something so I wouldn’t have a clue what I’m doing since I’m scared of heights <– conquer my fear of heights lol
19 – Get four more tattoos.
20 – Learn how to paint. Currently doing that.
21 – Learn how to drive a stick shift.
22 – Go Skinny Dipping lol
23 – Pay off credit cards.
24 – Learn how to play an instrument
25 – Get passionate about a cause and spend time helping it, instead of just thinking about it. April 2010
26 – Take a class on how to shoot a gun
27 – Take a salsa dancing class
28 – Read the Bible from beginning to end
29 – Get into geneology to find out more about my ancestors
30 – Complete a rigorous boot camp routine.
31 – Get my dream job working as a web designer.
32 – Be in a protest.
33 – Teach a college class.
34 – Attend Mardi Gras.
35 – Eat Something Exotic
36 – Drive a motorcycle.
37 – Spend some time in all 50 states.
38 – Take a vacation alone.
39 – Visit the Holy Land
40 – Get baptized.
41- Go jet skiing.
42 – Learn to say “no” without feeling guilty.
43 – Meet my favorite author.
44 – Read every single Zane book.
45 – See Lupe Fiasco in concert
46 – Sing my favorite song to an audience
47 – Write a letter to at least 3 of my closest friends to let them know how much they mean to me
Bahama Mama
Wednesday, June 2nd, 2010can’t be alone forever.
Tuesday, May 25th, 2010Those were the last words he said to me.
I was at the liquor store, sad I know lol. It was the liquor store by my house so I go there whenever I buy liquor. There is this guy, dorky white guy, who is always speaking to me. I never really paid him any mind, but today, I realized he was flirting with me.
“Do you need any help looking for anything?”
“I’m just looking for this drink my friend told me about, it is pink and I think it is called Nuvo.”
It was behind the counter. Then he started asking if I was buying it for him and when he checked my I.D., was like “You are barely past legal.”
“I don’t feel that way. I feel way past the legal age.”
“Well what does your man think about it?” he asked me.
“I don’t have one. I don’t have time for one right now.”
Then he went on to say how he knows I have needs and that I can’t be alone forever.
Well can I?
I am at the point in my life where I don’t want anything right now. Well let me rephrase this…I don’t want anything serious right now. I am tired of trying to meet guys and having to start all over and get to know them and them getting to know me. That is very tiring. I’m also at the point where I don’t want to have to think about his needs/wants in the relationship before making any type of decision. I want to be selfish and think about what I want for the time being. I have always put what I want and my needs aside or have to compromise for a relationship to try to work. I want to enjoy life and have no regrets. I have goals I want to fulfill and I have found from my past experiences, a serious relationship made it hard to fulfill them. I want to be free-spirited to do whatever the hell I want and not worry about him, whoever he may be. I want to concentrate on me.
I was talking about this to one of my very good friends about this and with us both being Sex and the City fans, we have came to the decision that I have the mindset like Samantha, for the time being. No, I’m not going around fucking every guy I come across, but she knows what she wants and she go gets it. She doesn’t depend on a man for her happiness. She finds relationships tedious and hard work which is how I feel right now about them.
I have tried the meeting of new guys and giving them a chance and I find myself not really wanting to. It is too much work and it is something I don’t need right now. I don’t mind having my fun with them but anything serious, you can scratch that.
So can I be alone forever? How would you define being alone? Not having a serious relationship but still enjoying your life with the man/men who are involved in your life? I think I can…for the time being.







