I was sitting around thinking about all the things that happened in the past few months. Then I started thinking about a conversation I had with my mom last week about a situation that happened last week. She told me that I do not need to tell a guy, a significant other or someone you are talking to, everything. She said she seen it happened with many people where a woman really likes/loves a guy and felt like they shouldn’t keep any secrets so they share everything with him but in the long run, the woman learns in some type of situation where it is best to keep some things to herself. Then I started thinking about the last couple of situations I was in. After something is over and done with, I sometimes think about were there clues or something a person said to make you question the truth. After thinking about a certain situation with someone, I started thinking about how I wasn’t completely honest myself. I would tell him that I don’t have anything to hide because we weren’t “together” and he would say the same thing to me – but I question if he was really telling the truth because I know I wasn’t. It wasn’t that I would straight up lie in his face but I would just keep things to myself or just turn it around. I knew deep down my heart he wasn’t completely innocent so I did my own thing. Then I started thinking, “Did I have a right to get mad about something when I wasn’t completely honest myself?” I also look at people I know who may appear completely innocent/perfect but in reality they are not. I learned from observing other people especially my friends and situations I have been in and learned what to expect – leave certain things unsaid and continue to do my own thing. All of this makes me question – is honesty the best policy or is it better to leave some things unsaid?
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is honesty the best policy?
Monday, December 28th, 2009
old maid.
Friday, December 25th, 2009The holidays are the perfect time to spend time with family and other family members that you do not get to see on a regular basis. It is also the perfect time to be reminded about what you are doing wrong in your life.
After having my brief moment where I was feeling down about my life, I was back to feeling good…feeling confident about what my life has in store for me. Until today. Christmas Day. The one day that you are supposed to feel joy but instead I feel the opposite.
I went down to my grandpa’s house today with my family to spend Christmas with him and some other family members as well. This was a moment I was looking forward to with all of us getting together. We were all laughing and talking about different things when the topic of kids came up. Since my youngest sister is married and pregnant with her second child, I keep getting the questions about when I’m going to get married and have kids. I always try to avoid how I really feel about this situation by saying I don’t want any kids but of course that brings up more questions for me. I kept getting bombarded with questions and comments saying “You need to hurry up and have kids.” or “You need someone in your life to love you – not necessarily a husband but kids” etc. I swear it went on and on all the way back home which was an hour and a half trip. They were all asking me if I like cats because they said if I keep this up, I will be sitting in a house alone with cats (which I hate animals).
However, this talk and constant reminder of where I am in life just put a damper in my day. It made me constantly think about my future and how I am really alone. It also brought back a past that I was trying to suppress of failed whatever you want to call it with guys and how I’m almost 30 years old with no one to call my own. I was just getting over feeling this way but spending time with family on the holidays, I’m always reminded of what I don’t have compared to what I have done with my life so far. That was the last thing I needed to hear when I was finally getting over something and starting to feel good about my life and myself.
bah hum bug. 
christmas gift suggestions.
Thursday, December 24th, 2009“Christmas gift suggestions: To your enemy, forgiveness. To an opponent, tolerance. To a friend, your heart. To a customer, service. To all, charity. To every child, a good example. To yourself, respect.” – Oren Arnold
Wish all a blessed and wonderful Christmas!
